I've always been in awe of the monastic life. I'm sure it's not for me exactly... Number one I'm a died in the wool protestant and number two I'm happily married. But reading this article got me to thinking... http://www.saradavidson.com/articleA2.html what about the monastic life appeals to me?
I mentioned it to my husband last night and he didn't have me committed, but he did think the questions I posed were odd. So this evening I told him, I'm going to go for a walk for an hour and I'll call you to pick me up when I'm done. Again he gave me an odd look, but agreed to come fetch me.
As I put 2.2 miles under foot, walking due east the whole time, I thought about this yearning.
Monastic life if simple.
Monastic life is ordered.
Monastic life is centered on service to God.
Monastic life is centered on worship of God.
Monastic life is celibate and it's about doing the best one can every time in an attitude of obedience.
I can claim only one of these traits as something I routinely practice, and that's service to God. That's the definition of my two jobs, Parish Nurse and Motherhood.
So the question is, "How do I bring the other parts (Except celibacy - I've made a holy vow on that one to not be celibate.) of this thing that I think I crave into my life?"
*sigh* I think it's possible to take steps that direction, but it might take a lot more of my stepping out on walks like this one to help me figure it out.
So I'm not going to ever become a nun, but tonight I was 1 step closer 2 understanding what I crave.
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